Illusory Follies

…not to be confused with mayonnaise (although both tend to ruin an otherwise tasty sandwich).

I’ve had a lot recently (again, malaise, not mayonnaise). There’s a lot going on and I empathize with Alice:

“Well, in our country,” said Alice, still panting a little, “you’d generally get to somewhere else — if you run very fast for a long time, as we’ve been doing.”

“A slow sort of country!” said the Queen. “Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!”

I’m way behind on reading, way behind on chores around the house (although I did finally wrap up my inspirational Plant Ledge Project). not keeping up with my supposedly rigorous exercise routine, behind on a huge bunch of personal geeky projects. Today I stayed home from work since I wasn’t feeling so hot. I feel like I’m in continual deadlock as I analyze new tasks that I feel may be higher priority than my current tasks. There’s no reason that I can’t accomplish what I have in front of me, I just keep thinking that among the continual stream of tasks flowing at me, there might be a more critical task that I should immediately stick at the front of my queue. The problem is that except for very small tasks, almost all of my time is spent analyzing the incoming tasks. So even if I do identify the critical tasks and properly prioritize them, it doesn’t really matter because unless a task can be done quickly, it will never actually have any opportunity to run despite its priority.

This causes feelings of guilt and malaise. Also, my cold doesn’t help.